I am Here for you no matter what

Not dead as some may think...

2007-09-11T01:57:54Z

Well i am up at GVSU and i haven't been on here in like FOREVER. So i thought that i would update and say that school is going fine and the the marching band here is great. I miss AP though. Mom got married in July and then i moved to white lake in August.

Not quite sure what else to say!

Haven't updated in a while....

2007-02-25T20:15:42Z

Well i have decided that i am going to go to GRAND VALLEY STATE UNIVERSITY. I turned in my stuff for housing yesturday after i took a tour of the campus. I like the campus because it is just the right size. Not huge but not tiny. I can't wait and am excited about going.

I have yet to find out what is going to happen for leaving school on friday of last week. It is still up in the air until all of the administration decides on what a good idea will be.

School has been going well. I can't believe that it is second semester already though. Graduation is coming up faster then i thought that it would. I am keeping my grades up and that is always a good thing.

I have my prom dress and can't wait for prom. I am acctually excited about a dance and that is a first.

Peru is coming up in just over a month and that is going to the trip of my life. I can't wait for that. It should be a great experience. It is one of those things that i never thought i would be able to do.

I miss talking to you as a friend but i guess thats what happens when you seperate.

that is all i can think of right now.
<3's
EMILY

here4u24_7_365 @ 2007-01-28T13:51:00

2007-01-28T18:55:54Z

Why is it fair that at the age of seven i child should die? I just don't understand. I feel like a little kid again where nothing makes much since. And nothing really seems as important as it did before. Just life it self seems so much more valuable and nothing else really matters.

here4u24_7_365 @ 2007-01-07T16:40:00

2007-01-07T21:42:44Z

For those of you that don't know already.
Come the begining of August i am moving out to white lake. I will no longer be living here and i wanted to make sure you all knew.

thats all for my little service announcement.

Last entry was a lie...

2007-01-03T01:17:10Z

Well my weekend up north was loads of fun. I got to hang out with a few friends for five days. It was a great time to just get away and sleep, eat, play cards, along with just being together. Brought in the year together and it was a good time.

Oh and about the whole boyfriend thing. It is over pretty much before it began but that is a long story and mostly my fault. But oh well life goes on!!!

<3's
EMILY

GREAT NEWS!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-28T17:25:33Z

I GOT MY ACCEPTANCE LETTER TO GVSU TODAY!!!!!!!!!! For those of you who don't know that is Grand Valley State University!!!!

Also other good news..

I am now in a relationship that i am VERY happy with!!!

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-12-26T20:39:00

2006-12-27T01:55:01Z

Through the Eyes of a Teenager
Every day passes,
Reminding me of lessons to be learned.
Opportunities pass me by,
Showing me things to be earned.

I do not know life as an adult sees it,
Only as a child and teen.
I can only guess what life is meant to be,
Based on what I've seen.

Today I learned of love,
And the pain that it may bear.
You can never know a person's truth,
Behind the masks they wear.

I do not know the meaning of love,
Or why it is ever true.
I'm unsure of so many things these days,
I know less than I thought I knew.

I find it's getting difficult,
To distinguish bad from good.
And although it sounds cliche,
I'm a child misunderstood.

I need to move on past the hurts,
Move to heaven from this hell.
I need to stand up to others,
And to myself as well.

I don't know how to tell,
A good friend from the bad.
We talk behind each other's backs,
Ruining the trust we had.

When I stare into the mirror,
I see things I wish I could deny
A fear of judgement and confrontation,
I can no longer look myself in the eye.

If everybody has to go,
Through torment and through pain.
If they understand the hurt,
That is another's gain.

If they can feel,
The burden of their fears.
And know the cost,
Of showing their tears.

If they know how it feels,
To have a lover or friend.
Stab their backs with knives,
Why are they so cruel to say
These are the best years of our lives?

A Toast
Raise your glass to the sky
with hopes and dreams held high.
To the graduates I toast...

Here's to the friends we've lost and gained,
and the people we'll never know by name.
To the bonds that we've made and albums we filled,
memories that may fade but never be killed.

Here's to the phone calls filled with tears,
and to the hours spend talking away our fears.
To the people we thought deserved our hearts,
whom now we bash and rip apart.

Here's to the pictures in frames with stories to say,
that we will be sure to pack when we go away.
To the football games we have watched beneath the lights,
and our cheers and chants drifting into the night.

Here's to proms and dances,
and high-school romances.
To homecoming games,
with all the wins in our name.

Here's to late nights we've spent cramming for tests,
and mornings where coffee made up for our rest.
To the dances and events we took months to create,
the night before worries that came to late.

Here's to the tears we knew we'd cry,
to the people and places we say good-bye.
To the wild and bizarre things we've done,
that we will remember to be the most fun.

Here's to the letters we left unsigned,
may our identities be revealed all in due time.
To the relationships we wonder how we ever lived without,
and the crushes we look back on and laugh about.

So now it is time to places our glasses down,
put on our caps and turn our tassels around.
Listen for our names and let them echo through,
and realize how fast these last four years just flew.

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-12-06T21:47:00

2006-12-07T02:47:43Z

All of the ensembles at the CONCERT did a fantastic job. Job well done to all on the first concert performed in the auditorium.

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-11-25T20:12:00

2006-11-26T01:12:30Z

I never thought that i would have to think about something like this. But the reality has finally shown through. I am not a little kid any more and have to deal with adult ordeals. A friend of mine is thinking about going into the navy. He took his test and got a 33 with the best being a 36. If he fills out the rest of the paper work the possibility of where he would be sent is iraq and that would be until we go to navel war with korea.

He keeps asking what i think and i put on a total show. I tell him that it is his choice and he should do it. But on the inside it is really scaring me. The thought of everything that is happening over there is mind boggling. I can't think of what to do.

It is just a really scary thought and i didn't know what to do or to think. So the best thing i thought was to write or type it out.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

<3's
EMILY

Good/Bad News

2006-10-31T04:10:24Z

I haven't quite decided whether or not this is good or bad. But since my mom is engaged after the date of July 28 2007. I will no longer be a resident of allen park i will be living in white lake when i am not at school. Just so everyone knows now. And it won't be such a big surprise when it happens

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-10-03T18:16:00

2006-10-03T22:17:04Z

Senior Pix
On
Myspace!!!!
Go and check them out!!

Homecoming Weekend

2006-10-03T01:57:57Z

Friday was really long but good. I didn't get to bed until about 2:00ish friday morning because me and kaylynn were working on the band float making sure that it would be done in time for the parade.

Then i went to school and got to skip the test since i wasn't there the day before for the review. So i just sat there for a half hour while the class finished their tests. Then after going to the rest of my classes the band performed at the the PEP ASSEMBLY!! That went wonderfully. The band sounded great and it was so good to hear everyone cheering for us. The football players even went into a chorus of "lets go band" it was great to hear. Then we had the parade at 3:15. That was ok i am really glad that it was my last homecoming parade at the high school. The game was a lot of fun we got to perform "my heart will go on" and CHELSEA MCCULLEY recieved homecoming queen. I am really glad that she got it because i thought that she was one of the most deserving of the 5 girls on court. They all looked beautiful. After the game i got to go out to eat with meghan, kelli, troy, ian, alexis, david, and meghan's friend who i don't remeber her name (sry). That was fun because i haven't hung out with meghan since before she left for bowling green so that was nice.

Saturday was long. A pep band went and performed for operation grandma. That went very well we even had people getting emotional because some of us were giving up our homecoming morning to make this lady's birthday that much happier. I am glad that i went because it was a lot of fun to do and i always like seeing the smile of people's faces during and after we perform. Then i had preperation for homecoming. Which that all flew by. Took a bunch of pictures before. Then had dinner at Romen Village. They had FANTASTIC FOOD there. The dance went well . I still kind of wish that i would have had a date but life goes on with that. I looked good and thought that the night went very well. It was a nice last homecoming in high school. Kaylynn, scott, ryan, sarah, greg, katrina, beth and a couple other people went bowling after wards. That was fun cuz we were all still dressed up.

Sunday just flew by because the day before was so long.

I great weekend all in all. I am glad that it was a great homecoming.

That is all i have to say about my weekend. Check out a few pictures on myspace.

<3's
EMILY

PUMP IT UP JAGUARS! PUMP IT UP!!!

2006-09-23T04:17:58Z

HELL YA BITCHES WE WON OUR GAME TODAY!!!!!! Really close game but we won 32-27. The JAGS ROCKED THE HOUSE!!! We almost weren't able to go to the game because fordson was being dumb and was going to make us pay to get in. So our very generous football team pitched in to get us the money to go. Our football team rocks and some of them really do have hearts!

Thats all for an update right now..

First two days of school...

2006-09-07T19:25:06Z

The first to days of school went pretty well.

I like all of my classes except for pre-calc because i don't like my teacher. So far a.p. chem is pretty cool.

Band class seems a little weird though. Almost erie in a sence because it doesn't seem full any more. A big part of what made band comfortable is gone. I mean i still love band but it seems weird. I bet it has something to do with being a senior.

The macy's gig yesturday went pretty well. Everything went according to plan. Only problem was that it took us forever to get home. 1. becuz of traffic 2. because of the RAIN!!!

I think fiddler is going to be a fun show we had a read through yesturday and have rehersal today.

Time Changes Everything....

2006-09-01T18:59:48Z

(the subject is a message in its self and has nothing to do with the entry)

Well Happy News For Me. I got into fiddler on the roof and am in the chorus. I am quite happy to be in the show i would have liked to have a named part but i can deal with just being titled chorus. So in november i think it is everyone should come and see my show because it will be a fun time.

Another good thing is that we have one both of our football games so far this year. It is starting off to be a pretty good year. True there are some things that our team could be doing better at but there isn't to much i can do about that,

Band is going pretty well we have moved into the NEW BAND ROOM which has 2 SEPERATE LIBRARIES for band and choir. I am happy about that so i don't have to worry about choir librarians yelling at me about the music being mixed together.

School is starting on wendesday and i don't want it to. I must do my A.P. chem work.

Well that is all for now. I will talk to you all later.

I wish change didn't happen so often!!!

<3's
EMILY

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-08-29T22:42:00

2006-08-30T02:44:08Z

Well i tried out for fiddler on the roof today. I think that the auditions went pretty good. At least they went better for this show then they did for the last show i tryed out for. I hope i make it in and if i don't it is because i had an ok audition and didn't stand out from the rest. Which can be understandable cause i do tend to blend into the crowd. Oh well that is all i have to say about everything.

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-08-17T21:12:00

2006-08-18T01:19:18Z

Summer is slowly coming to and end and here is what i have learned.

I have one whole year of my childhood left. I have been preparing slowly for my senior year. This summer has been the time of my life, making my friendships bigger and better so hopefully they will last forever and a day. Band Camp was at the begining of this month and that was a good time. Band Camp Crew '06 is the best group of girls i have ever met. Now the band is getting ready for our first game at EMU next weekend. Schedule pick-up is next week on wendesday and that is scary to think about. I have A.P. chem homework that i have to finish before we go back on the 6th of september. Today i was asked to be the stage manager for Southgate Community Players production of Aladdin Jr. so i am going to do that.

Over this summer i have grown a lot and have begun to realize that i can't always depend on others. It is up to me to make my own decesions and i can't always ask for help. Every once in a while it might be ok to do but i can't always ask others for help. Friends are the best thing that anyone can ask for they are the ones that help you through your adolescent years. Then if you are lucky you keep at least 25% of those friendships for the rest of your life.

Thank you to everyone that is special in my life. You help me get through those hard times and even are there through the best times of my life.

That is pretty much what has been going on in my life this summer and what has been running through my mind recently.

Peace out,
EMILY LOUISE

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-08-13T00:31:00

2006-08-13T04:32:59Z

I LOVE MY GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!! WE had a ball while we were in up in frankenmuth! Best summer yet. BAND CAMP CREW '06!!!

That is all i have to say. Oh and i might actually audtion for a show this week i haven't decided yet. Guys and Dolls should i do it or not?

EMILY

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-08-06T12:53:00

2006-08-06T16:59:12Z

Band camp was the best this year. I spent every night with seven of the most fabulous girls in the world!!! Alexis, Amber, Sarah, Kelli, Amanda, and Kaylynn. These are the best girls in the world and this year is going to be the bomb spending time with them!

I got to see meghan again at band camp she came home and showed up the last day. It was good to see her again cuz i love that girl. But i don't know it just kinda seemed weird. The fact that i was there at band camp doing stuff and she was watching.

I have my senior pictures if anyone would like to seem them just let me know. I have in door and outdoor proofs to look at and select from.

i guess that is all. BAND CAMP CREW '06 IS LOVE!!!!

<3'S ALWAYS
emily

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-08-01T18:18:00

2006-08-01T22:25:19Z

TWO VERY HOT DAYS OF BAND CAMP DOWN AND THREE TO GO!!!

Weight loss will be a deffinate for me this year if i am not sweating off the pounds i am working them off on the drills. The days went by slow but they were kinda fun. The nights deffinatly have been. Spent the night at miss ALEXIS MOSLEY on sunday and then at miss AMBER COLLINS on monday and will soon be leaving to stay at miss AMANDA SAPP's house. Living up the last year of band camp the best we can. These girls are my life. I love hanging out with them!!!

Hope all is going well for everyone. I will talk to you all later. MUCH LOVE TO EVERYONE!!!!

<3's
EMILY

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-07-26T22:23:00

2006-07-27T02:24:21Z

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with six random facts about yourself. In the end you need to choose six people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I listen to country music a lot and i love it.

2. I absolutly despise my father and there is nothing that anyone say to change it.

3. I like to clean my room which i am doing at this very moment.

4. I LOVE STICKERS!!!!!!!!!!

5. i am amused by shiny things

6. i am going to be a senior in the fall

Tag: Amber, Autumn, lesley chan, meghan hayward, josh beurer, steph prister

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-07-25T16:54:00

2006-07-25T20:56:16Z

Best Day/Night of my life

JULY 24, 2006

JOURNEY CONCERT WITH THE BEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD!!!!

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-07-15T08:16:00

2006-07-15T12:21:21Z

Yesturday was pretty fun. I went to the first float party of the year for band at miss Kaylynn Ann's house. I left early so i could go and help alexis with the concession's at show for southgate. We had fun and it was a pretty good show. Afterwards we went to Red Robin. The two of us were talking about random things. It was just an over all pretty good evening.

I just don't think that i will ever be taken seriously after what i said to you. But you did it right back to her so it was all good..

Fun Filled night.

Then today i get to go and take my senior pictures. And my friend leaves to go up north for two weeks :( i will be good eventually lol.

Thats all i guess so PEACE OUT ALL!!

here4u24_7_365 @ 2006-07-12T00:03:00

2006-07-12T04:03:31Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
× I'm paranoid at times.	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
✓ I love my job(s). (that is if you count a paper route and babysiting as jobs)	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	× I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
✓ I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	✓ I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	× I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	× I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	✓ Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Senior Pictures

2006-07-11T15:30:15Z

I have a lot to do for my pictures on saturday but some of it is done already. I hope they go well.

get my hairs cut (done)
buy 3 casual and 1 formal outfit (i have 3 of the 4)
call prestige and inform them that i am bringing a dog
fix my tan
make sure my make-up matches my face

So much to do and so little time. I feel all cute with these outfits and i am glad that i am getting them taken and it will describe me.

P.S. if any drama kid happens to have either the matchmaker or a midsummer nights dream program that i could borrow let me know. Please and thank you!